Welcome to My Quarter-Life Crisis
Oh, hey there. Welcome to the panic attack that is 26.
My name is Cayla, and I’m a 26 year old Millennial, smack dab in the middle of a quarter-life crisis. That sounds dramatic. Let me clarify.
I turned 26 on May 20th. One day later, I woke up in a cold sweat, thoughts racing, and the deep, dark feeling of not being good enough based on where I am in life. It’s not common – at least in my own experience – for a typical Sunday morning to be filled with dread about my debt, my weight, my single status, my social life. Now don’t get me wrong, I was aware of all of those insecurities. It just wasn’t common for them to all rear back, smack me in the face, and tell me to start doubting myself – all at the same time. I like to keep them buried beneath the surface, like everyone else I know.
Flash-forward to June 1. I left work that Thursday night and cried the whole drive home. I don’t live close to my job, it was a LONG cry. Eventually, I had an eye-opening conversation and decided I wasn’t going to continue feeling this incredible amount of dread. And when I said dread, I really mean that a variety of feelings including but not limited to: stress, doubt, fear, anxiety, and worthlessness were weighing my shoulders down like I was squatting 600 pounds (FYI – my PR for squats is nowhere near 600 pounds).
So here I am – spilling my thoughts on a page for others to read. Why? Because I know that I’m not the only one that’s felt this way. I know that there are an immense amount of people that struggle with their insecurities. And for me, knowing that I’m not alone in the struggle makes it just a little bit easier to manage those feelings of self-doubt. Maybe, just maybe, one person reading this will get even a small sense of comfort from knowing there’s someone else in their boat with them.
So what will I be blogging about? My Journey (accept my advance apology for briefly turning into a contestant on The Bachelor and referencing my journey). I’m taking steps – big and small – to conquer this quarter-life crisis.
Crisis 1: Drowning in Debt
I struggle big time with the amount of debt I’ve accumulated over the years. After hearing nothing but positive reviews, I’ve decided to start the Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University. I’ll be posting about my experience with the program, what I’m struggling with, success, failures, and more.
Crisis 2: Body Image Blues
My weight, body image, and self-confidence has taken major hits this year. I’m looking forward to trying new workouts and meal plans to feel comfortable in my body.
Crisis 3: Single Sally – Table for 1
I’ll be honest – being single for the last 5 (OMG FIVE) years has been filled with positives and negatives. The biggest negative? It’s lonely, and that’s a lot harder to openly admit than I thought it would be. I’m going to really push myself out of my comfort zone and try a variety of dating methods (think: apps, speed dating, etc) to make the effort to meet someone.
Crisis 4: Homebody Hermit seeks Social Life
Ace – my dog – is my social life. I’m the first to admit that I REALLY enjoy staying home and watching Netflix or reading a good book. I love coming home from work and putting on pajamas. Unfortunately, I need a social life. I need to find people that share the same interests as me. And in order to do that, I can’t stay at home all the time and wait for people to knock on my door who want to hang out with me. I’m planning to find things that I really enjoy doing, and then pursue those activities with other people.
In short, this is going to be a story of a single, 26 year old Millennial trying to find her way through life. I’m excited to be taking on these challenges and making this my best year yet. I hope that you’ll be along for what is sure to be a bumpy ride.
Buckle up, this is 26.